Week 7 Submission

Date: November 15th, 2022 6:42 AM

Previously on PZ: Submission 6: Pink Devil Woman

Lucille Marie Antonia... she's a fucking SWEETHEART

Last week's submission features the one and only LuciMa, and I already see areas where I could have improved. F-word. ^^'



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Tags: Anjie's Universe, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Submission 6: Pink Devil Woman

Date: November 7th, 2022 8:11 AM

Previously on PZ: Week 5 Submission

La Femme Diable Rose... The Pink Devil Woman

An evil female spirit found roaming the countryside whenever the sky is pink, whether during sunrise, sunset, or storm. She draws in her prey with sweet whispers, songs, and promises, then drinks their blood when they least expect it, and devours their corpse when she's done. She delights in the consumption of humans of all genders, taking their life force for her own. Do not be deceived by her sweet face, as she hides a sinister imperative behind a mask of innocence, beauty and wonder.

...This digital painting took me two weeks to create, one for the drawing & another for the painting, and I still don't consider her finished. The original idea was to create an image of a female spirit that was both beautiful and macabre, using a color that is usually considered beautiful but not macabre (PINK), and she was supposed to be finished by Halloween. She doesn't quite look the way she did in my head at the beginning of the project, but I suppose she turned out okay anyways. I had originally imagined her as a platinum blonde wearing white, but the picture turned out quite redder than I had initially anticipated it would. Oh well. I'm sure I'll paint her again sometime in the future, as I find this kind of demoness quite compelling. (And, of course, who really needs an excuse to draw a big-tittied waifu? Not me hahaha)



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Tags: Art, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Week 5 Submission

Date: October 23rd, 2022 7:50 PM

Previously on PZ: Week 4 Submission

I had the most difficult time getting Evil Anjie's face to look normal, and this is the best I could do right now. ^^'



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Tags: Anjie's Universe, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Week 4 Submission

Date: October 19th, 2022 6:00 AM

Previously on PZ: Week 3 Submission

It's a couple days late, but it's okay... ^^'



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Tags: Cosmos, Anjie's Universe, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Week 3 Submission

Date: October 9th, 2022 8:55 AM

Previously on PZ: Week 2 Submission



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Tags: Cosmos, Love, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Week 2 Submission

Date: September 26th, 2022 1:20 PM

Previously on PZ: Week 1 Submission

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Tags: Anjie's Universe, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Week 1 Submission

Date: September 18th, 2022 9:50 PM

Previously on PZ: Zero Hours and Midlife Formative Years

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Tags: Anjie's Universe, Digital Paint, Photoshop, Weekly Submissions

 

 

 

Zero Hours and Midlife Formative Years

Date: July 26th, 2022 12:45 PM

Previously on PZ: This Chapter Just Keeps Getting Better And Better

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Few parts of my life have ever gone the way I thought they would. When things go well, I am pleasantly surprised and I feel grateful— I don't take it for granted that things will always go well, I just appreciate them when they do. In a world where, literally, "anything goes", this seems to me like the best way to approach life— for now, at least. Since my human identity is strongly tied to the Cosmic Here And Now (this time, this planet), she can feel the flows and tensions of the social turmoil currently enveloping the globe as if they were her own bloodstream.

My entire life, I've always wanted to be an INFLUENCER of some sort: a scientist, a journalist, a professor, a rock star, an artist, a businesswoman, a writer, a lifestreamer, a politician, a cult leader, a dominatrix— you name it, I've considered it. The flip side of that desire is that I've also always wanted to control how and where the time of my life is spent, so I've considered becoming a traveling hobo, as well. (That's not to say that traveling hobos cannot be influencers, too!) I've always wanted to have twelve careers at once, but I haven't figured out how to do that yet. I haven't yet found a way to line my ambitions up with my lived reality, but I'm still hard at work on this task. I have all of these puzzle pieces, and I've been fitting them together bit by bit for many years, and yet while the main picture is coming into focus there is much that still remains unclear. That's where I'm at in my life right now.

I know I didn't come here to just do what other people tell me to do. That, to me, is an egregious waste of precious life, and I wish I had realized it when I was much younger. I came here to use my mind to create something fantastic from the ruins of this world, and that is what I intend to do. If there is a way for me to be everything I've ever wanted to be, I'm going to find that way or die trying to find it. Unfortunately, there is this thing called "money" that I have to accrue in order to be successful in this world, since every facet of modern existence seems to hinge upon the possession of massive wealth. Well, the world is awash in money, and there are tons of ways to procure it, so if it's money I need, then it's money I'll get. What I need even more than money, though, is SELF-DISCIPLINE, and no amount of money in the world is going to buy me that. I have to start talking to myself rather than listening to myself if I want to develop the prowess required to breathe life into my dreams.

When people talk about "the formative years", they are usually referring to the first decade of early childhood that are so seminal for human development, but I believe this scope is far too narrow. All of the years of a human life are formative, but there are different phases of life which contribute massively to that human's development in different ways— childhood is only one of these phases! Adolescence is another! Adulthood itself encompasses many phases as well, one of the most prominent being "the midlife crisis" (this is where I'm at right now).

But it is not enough to simply acknowledge the formative stages of individual humans without also recognizing the formative stages of humanity as a whole. Although an individual may live and die over a matter of decades, the ideas and cultures human individuals contribute to while they are alive may continue to live for millennia before coming to an end. Ideas and cultures are formative experiences which shape future human development in ways individuals may never understand during their lifetimes.

It is not enough for me to simply live my life and then die. The kind of influence I seek to wield is the kind that lasts beyond individual human lifetimes. I have little doubt that reincarnation is the way of the cosmos, and I would like to optimize my chances of one day being reincarnated into a better world. To optimize my chances means to optimize the chances for every other human, too (or at least, the ones most like myself). And we all live in this world so we can optimize our chances for success on our own terms, don't we? I just happen to be seeing a future far past this current lifetime. But maybe it's THIS lifetime I should be focusing upon the most. If I focus upon doing my best today, tomorrow will take care of itself; if I focus upon doing my best in this lifetime, then future lifetimes will take care of themselves. ♥

 

Weird Trivia About Me: Some people call them "identity crises", I call them "modes of cosmic locomotion".



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Tags: The Valentine, Personal Development, Life, Reincarnation, Purpose

 

 

 

This Chapter Just Keeps Getting Better And Better

Date: July 10th, 2022 10:36 AM

Previously on PZ: What's A Place Like Me Doing In A Girl Like This?

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I've lost my job with True North Marketing. I couldn't handle the fact that selling is basically using social norms to manipulate people for financial gain, and I said some things in a meeting when I probably should have kept my mouth shut. I knew it as I was saying it, that I should have kept my mouth shut and kept my reservations to myself. But I couldn't. Josh says him and Tre aren't disappointed in me, but I am disappointed in myself. I thought I could make myself fit the mould. I thought I could figure out how to do this. But no. I saw things that rubbed me the wrong way, and when I expressed that openly it caused things to fall apart. I never felt like I really belonged there, anyways. I learned a lot, but it wasn't my home, just another place to travel through on the way to some place else.

I've thought an awful lot about suicide in the past several days since that happened, as I usually do whenever life falls apart (and it always does, eventually). But at the same time, I feel like I still have things to live for here. This cognitive dissonance is maddening: I belong here, but I don't; I want to live, but I also don't want to live HERE; I want to leave, but I also don't want to leave NOW. I feel like a star being pulled apart by gravity. Perhaps I flew too close to the sun. Perhaps I flew too close to the black hole. But whatever happened, here I find myself yet again at a crossroads, and wondering where to go.

I loved working in the nursery. The professionalism of the nursery I worked in was less than I wanted it to be, but I really loved being around beautiful plants every single day. I don't know where I belong now, but it seems like a good idea to go back to working for a nursery. There's tons of jobs out there, I'm certain I can find one that doesn't make me want to kill myself, I just don't know what it's going to take for me to find it. My real job is Celestial Pearl Productions, but I don't know how to get it to make money yet, and I still need money in order to live in this house with Josh. I guess I have quite a lot of work to do in finding my way forward from here.

I guess the best place to start would be taking what I learned while working at True North and applying it to Celestial Pearl. Besides my relationship with Josh, CP is all I have to live for. If I'm going to make anything work, it's got to be CPP.

I am alone in this, after all.

 

“You've been left on your own, Like a rainbow in the dark”

-Dio

 

On an unrelated note, I saw Thor: Love And Thunder at the theatre with Josh, Tre, Trevor & Maddie last night. It could have been better, but it was a beautiful movie nonetheless.

 

Weird Trivia About Me: I love rainbows whether they have anything to do with LGBTQ+ culture or not. I just love colors!



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Tags: The Valentine, My Life, Death

 

 

 

What's A Place Like Me Doing In A Girl Like This?

Date: July 8th, 2022 7:26 PM

Previously on PZ: The Spaces In Between Life

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I've never felt like I belong in this reality. It's like a room I've never allowed myself to leave, no matter how many other rooms I know are out there that I've seen in my dreams, visions, gnosis of the mind and heart. Some rooms are arguably better than this one, others are arguably worse. But there's a whole lot of world out there, and exploring what's beyond the veil of this reality sounds way more exciting to me than continuing to remain in this world, which has become far too toxic for me to bear or ignore.

I believe in eternal reincarnation— this isn't provided to me by science or religion, it's just an axiom, what I believe is most likely the real case about this universe we're in. I don't believe any of us existed on purpose (parents choose to have their kids, the kids do not choose to have their parents), and I know that all of us are going to eventually die. None of us got to choose to exist here, but all of us get to choose to NOT exist here. There is power, freedom and dignity in choosing how we die, just as there is power, freedom, and dignity in choosing how we live. We humans readily exalt the virtues of living life on purpose, but balk at the very idea of the virtues of ending life on purpose. All other animals on the planet seem to have little to no problem with death, dying, and killing each other, but then humans came along and decided in all of their hubris that they wanted to differentiate themselves from the rest of the animals. So we outlawed murder, and watched our population balloon with every passing century, only to come to a point where there are so many of us that conflict has become our status quo. We took away our right to kill other humans, our right to kill our offspring, and our right to kill ourselves, believing this would make society a better place, but it has not. We criminalized the natural world because we didn't like being afraid of it, and in the process the world has transformed into an ongoing nightmare for us all. We stay in the same tiny room because we are afraid of what else is out there in the world— a completely understandable human choice that I myself have made for decades. But this room is not the only room, this life is not the only life, and our death will not be the only death we experience. I have tried to live on purpose and failed, now I want to die on purpose and succeed. On to the next opportunity.

That is what "NO" really means: Next Opportunity. There are endless opportunities for all kinds of experiences, and the vast majority of them exist beyond our comfort zones. Existing here, for me, has always been way outside my comfort zone, and so comfort has become a very valuable thing to me in this lifetime. I often have found myself wondering what the next lifetime, or dream, will be like. It makes perfect sense to me that every lifetime is a dream, begun with birth and ending with death (more or less), and waking up from one dream means finding oneself deep inside another one, and that this process will continue forever simply because there are infinite realities. Will we ever remember who we were in other lives? Some people do remember them, but most people forget them, I think because continuing forever into eternity is just easier that way. There's too much information in the universe for us to process all perspectives all at once, that's why we process it slowly and with different avatars. Every avatar is empowered to be themselves while they exist, and every avatar will return to the Oneness when they cease to exist. All opportunities exist in the Oneness.

No one else has to subscribe to this understanding— since we live in an infinite multiverse, everyone has the freedom to believe whatever they like. There are no truly universal concepts of right and wrong, truth and lies BECAUSE we live in an infinite multiverse where all things exist simultaneously. What is true here is a lie somewhere else; what is right here is wrong somewhere else, and vice versa. These things we have picked up in our current time-space reality, is not representative of the whole picture of all time-space realities. Some will say this is an absurdist understanding of the universe, and with them I would agree on this— the universe is quite capable of embracing absurdity whether we humans are comfortable with it or not. I am nowhere near convinced that our universe is entirely rational-- in fact, I believe rationality is more of a cosmic exception than a cosmic rule. These beliefs may be right or wrong in the eyes of other beholders, but to me these beliefs, formed during years of observation and careful deliberation, are essential to my truest understanding of the universe.

So what is a girl like me doing in a place like this? Or, more specifically, what is a cosmic being like me doing in a girl like this?

Maybe I really did choose to be here. I don't think that is the case, however. If I did actually choose to be here, it is not a decision I remember making at all. It could be a decision made by my higher self, without care as to what I would think or feel of it. I don't consider that true informed consent, though. True informed consent is what is needed to achieve mastery of one's own life (and death), and THAT is of the utmost importance to me. Our own existence is not even based in true informed consent, and that, to me, is a major problem, one that I'd be willing to flee this lifetime to avoid. It could very well be that no lifetime or existence is based on true informed consent, in which case freedom can only come to us through our choosing of how to live our lives and die our deaths. I could have ended my life at any point up until now. I chose not to, because I wanted to see if things would get better. And things did get better inside me. Things also got so much worse outside me. I don't feel like it is my duty to stay here any more than it is someone else's duty to take care of me. Every person has exactly one person in the world whose responsibility is to take care of them, and that person is always themselves. Who knows how to take care of me better than myself? Who knows how to take care of you better than yourself? I may not have had the choice to spring into existence in the first place, but I CAN choose how to experience that existence, and I CAN choose when to end it, too. I can choose to leave this existence behind and enter another one just like I can choose to leave one room and enter another, even though I never got to choose which rooms exist in the world in the first place.

I would love to live the rest of my life with the happy spirit I've always naturally possessed, and die peacefully of old age... but I can't do that here.

I would love to create children, provide for them and watch them grow and live in their own happy spirits... but I can't do that here.

I would love to pursue my dreams and make meaningful connections with other human beings... but I can't do that here.

Seeing the world's decline, I choose to depart.

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Weird Trivia About Me: I love the tv series Rick and Morty, especially the first three seasons. My favorite quote from the show is said by Morty Smith: "Nobody exists on purpose. Nobody belongs anywhere. Everybody’s gonna die. Come watch TV?"



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Tags: The Valentine, Anarchism, Death, Reincarnation, Taboo

 

 

 

The Spaces In Between Life

Date: June 25th, 2022 9:27 AM

Previously on PZ: A New Chapter

An old watercolor painting I made in 2006 and sold in 2007.

Tomorrow marks the end of my third week with True North Marketing. This is by far one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life: moving from being a recluse with nothing but my dreams, to talking to strangers all day every day in order to one day fulfill those dreams. I am more scared of human beings than I am of any other animal on our planet, but I know I need to learn how to love them properly and there's no other way that I'll do it besides just making myself do it, and this is how I'm making myself do it. I am trying to learn how to move between nervousness and excitement with ease (it's not coming easy to me yet, though). I often find myself missing the moments of quiet, contemplative solitude that I have enjoyed for years. Those are the moments that keep me the most grounded. But now I am learning how to fly, and sticking to the ground isn't going to help me do that. So I am learning new modes of being. I still sometimes think, "what the hell am I doing here? I should be working on video games, books, and digital paintings, not doing this". But what good will the games, books, and paintings be if I cannot sell them to the world? I have thought about putting all of my intellectual property into the public domain, that way they would be able to organically circulate the world unimpeded, but doing that will not teach me how to make energy flow. Learning how to make energy flow is what I'm really after, after all. And it is difficult to build momentum. But I keep telling myself that one day I will thank myself for going through this phase, because it will enable me to reach higher places in the future. Knowing that the future can be better than the past is what makes me keep going in the present. If I stop now, what will I gain? A lot of free time, but also a lot of disappointment in myself, and a loss of connection with others. The people inside my head may keep me company all of the time, but the human beings outside of my head will want to meet them— who am I to deprive others of the wonders of my mind? This sounds self-absorbed (and it is), but I know that I have an extraordinary gift to share. I know I have something that can make other people really, really happy— who am I to keep it all to myself? So I'll continue trudging through the mud, knowing that I will become clean later.

 

Weird Trivia About Me: I find it much easier to talk to dogs, plants, and computers rather than people.



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Tags: My Life, The Valentine, Personal Development

 

 

 

A New Chapter

Date: June 12th, 2022 4:47 PM

Previously on PZ: My Life: June 2022

So about a week ago I started a new job with a marketing company called True North, the same one Josh got hired into after the Home Depot shit happened. The first week has been shit: I've made a lot of progress, but I've also made zero sales. I was put in some of the most difficult locations to sell in on my first week as a trainee, and by the end of the week I became so discouraged I was sent home early on Saturday because I couldn't keep myself together anymore. This job is perfect confirmation bias for what I've always known about people, and the constant reception of suckerpunches has left me wondering if I made a mistake in leaving Wilmore (a job that I loved that only paid minimum wage). I'm not ready to give up on this job yet, but I am definitely in a slump in my first week in already. A part of me says that the promises of money isn't worth putting up with peoples' bullshit every day, and I am inclined to agree. A part of me also says that this is indeed my path to further self-development and I should give it my all until I am CERTAIN the job is not for me, and I am inclined to agree with that as well. As always, I feel I am being stretched and torn into at least two directions. I'm still going to give this job my all, but I HAVE to adjust my attitude and find a way to not let the negativity get to me, somehow. At least one sale this week would have shown me that my hard work was worth it, but that didn't happen. Maybe this is payback for me leaving Wilmore without giving a two-week notice; maybe I deserve a shitty start because I gave up too quickly on my previous job. That at least would make sense. But damn, did I really make a mistake thinking I could do this? I never imagined myself ending up in a job like this, in some ways it feels like the antithesis to my own values. But it also makes a lot of sense for me to move in this direction, too. The only way out of it is through it, right? If I succeed at this job, I will learn a lot of new skills for my future development. If I don't succeed at this job, I'll feel like a failure and like I'm just not meant to be an entrepreneur (I'll also feel like I let Josh down). The stakes are high on this one, and I suppose that's why I'm sorting through so many different feelings regarding my latest career change. Josh is doing great at this job now, and his start, while maybe not quite as rough as mine, was also a rough start. He said he spent his first week wondering what he had gotten himself into. I've heard that other people have been through the same slumps and now they are happy and productive with this job, so I think I can do it too. I just have to find what it is I need to do to adjust myself properly in order to succeed. I have a rough idea of what I need to succeed, but I also have a lot of reservations.

Am I on the right path? Will this path really take me to where I want to go? What do I even want anymore? Do I want to make a lot of money and give my dreams the resources they truly deserve, or do I just want to live my day-to-day existence being happy even if it means not really chasing my dreams anymore? Do I have to choose just one or the other? If I can make my day-to-day existence a pleasurable one using this job, then don't I have a responsibility to give it a real try? Don't I have to expand myself beyond my comfort zones in order to grow to the potential I know I am capable of? Even if I can be fulfilled with the bare necessities of life, do I have to be content with stopping there? Even if I am content with so little, can't I grow into more? Aren't there blossoms to create too, not just leaves? This path feels so right in so many ways, which is why I moved on from Wilmore so quickly once I decided to go for it. Are those feelings misplaced, am I fooling myself? Would I feel better now if I had given Wilmore a two weeks notice? Would I feel better avoiding people instead of seeking them out? Would I feel better learning how to live in the world instead of hiding from it? Why do I feel so tired all the time? Will these reservations ever go away, or will they just evolve along with me forever? Am I just being a little bitch, do I just need to buck up? Or am I really on the wrong path here? Would Josh still want to be with me if this job turns out to be not for me, or would I lose him too? Is pressure bad, or would being under pressure be good for me in this instance? What is wrong with me?

They say this job is 70% attitude. And I've ALWAYS had an attitude problem. But this job is giving me an opportunity to fix my bad attitude, and the promised reward of a better future is something I cannot ignore. How do I change ways of thinking that once worked for me in the past, but aren't working for me now? A critical attitude has proved to be both a blessing and a curse, but there is no doubt that it has helped me get through many tough situations before. But maybe that's the wrong tool for this job. I am convinced that the solution to my problems, my current career woes, is locked within my own heart, but where is the key to unleash it? I have to find it. My attitude(s) regarding other people need some fresh perspectives, and I guess going out into life and trying new things is the best way to achieve that. But what if my worst suspicions regarding other people are correct, and I become so depressed that I just kill myself to escape the pain of having to live an existence with other people? That's what I'm worried about. But I can't just give up on this opportunity to maybe make my life better, to maybe make myself better. This challenge can still be very good for me. If I get through this and find out this path isn't right for me, there are still places I can go, things I can do with this lifetime. Maybe I am making way too much out of all of this. There is always another tomorrow, another opportunity to better ourselves. Even if this isn't the right path for me, I can still learn from my experience with it. And I've wanted life to give me a new situation to force myself to improve, anyways, because I know that I won't change unless I have to. Now I have to change and I am bitching and moaning about it, but the reality of the situation is that I chose to embark upon this path, and I'm choosing to stay on it for a while longer despite the reservations I feel towards it. I knew this would be a challenge for me and I still went for it, so I have to stay strong and see what happens. I feel myself slipping away but only because I am changing, and when we're changing we become unrecognizable to ourselves for awhile. I'm sure caterpillars in their cocoons feel somewhat the same way while transforming into a butterfly-- after all, they are leaving behind everything they have ever known about being a caterpillar and trading it for the knowledge of being a butterfly, and while this transformation is important I'm sure it's no small task for the caterpillar, just like this is no small task for me. I wonder if caterpillars even think about what is happening to them as they are transforming into butterflies, or if they just go with the flow and don't worry about anything.

At this new job, I am surrounded by people who support me, who are dedicated to improving their lives, and this isn't something I should give up just because the job in the field is difficult. Just because it isn't a PERFECT environment (they're all still human beings like me, after all) doesn't mean this isn't one of the best work environments I've ever experienced. This is definitely the hardest and easiest job I've ever had before, and definitely the one with the most potential for me to expand. This is what I wanted, a challenge that would make me grow, and I'm not doing a horrible job-- I'm told I'm doing a great job even though the sales didn't happen and the first week sucked. So things are really not that bad. The problems are all in my head... my attitude. And at the end of the day I'm the only one who can really change my own attitude. I need an attitude adjustment, and no one can do that for me. It's my time to shine, I can't go dark now. Appreciation is the key.

I appreciate this opportunity to grow as a sentient being.
I appreciate how friendly and supportive my new work environment is.
I appreciate the potential advancement that is available to me with this new career path.
I appreciate the lessons I will be learning that will enable me to reach new heights.
I appreciate this opportunity to make more money than I ever have before in my life.
I appreciate the new life this job has given to my personal dreams.
I appreciate the new perspectives this experience is allowing me to understand.
I appreciate myself for trying something new and exciting and extremely daunting.
I appreciate Josh for showing me what is possible and being there for me.
I appreciate Medusa for her unending patience with me and her endless love.
I appreciate the Tao for the totality of this life experience.
I appreciate the fun I'm having with other human beings despite me being a hermit.

 

Weird Trivia About Me: I can't sing or dance, but I love to do both these things.



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Tags: My Life, The Valentine, Personal Development

 

 

 

My Life: June 2022

Date: June 5th, 2022 9:33 PM

Previously on PZ: My Life: January 2022

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Tomorrow I start a new job in a new field. Never really saw myself getting into marketing before, but since Josh started over a month ago at a new company I’ve heard mostly good things about them, and I’ve decided to join the team too. I loved my job watering plants at the nursery, and I thought about working at a different, more professional nursery— but Josh then pitched me the idea of joining the marketing company and I started to think seriously about how such a trajectory could influence my personal development. I thought ‘why not try it out and see how it goes?’ and reminded myself that if it turns out I hated it I can always find a nursery to go work in. However, the job marketing tech (I’ll be selling cell phones) will force me to work with people and solve problems on the fly— two weak links in my own personal development. I also have the potential to earn a LOT more income than a nursery (or any other job I’ve had before) would pay me, which will allow me to build a better future for my beloved family. And that’s what really matters.

Speaking of beloved family, the three of us went on a hike in a state park near Castle Rock yesterday. I mismanaged the water supply spectacularly: first I put too much in the medusa‘s bowl when I gave her a drink, then later on I lost the water bottle in the woods somehow and only noticed later when I realized I wasn’t carrying it anymore. We accidentally followed an animal trail and got lost for a minute, but we found the actual trail again not long afterwards. We ended up tired and thirsty towards the finish, but we had a great time. Josh, with his super-ultra-mega-five-camera-brand-new-cell phone, took some truly amazing pictures of the landscape scenes we saw along the way. Even when he zoomed way in, the pictures were still sharp and crystal clear. It was a lovely hike, and Josh and I had a lovely dinner at Italian restaurant that made their own mozzarella cheese. We drank red wine and talked about how beautiful the day had been. Medusa was absolutely pooped. We all had an excellent time refreshing ourselves.

So here I am, entering yet another new chapter of my life, working side-by-side with Josh at yet another job. But this time we will be working together at a place far better than the previous jobs. This will be an opportunity for the both of us to become rich while making people happy. It even sounds like we will be on the same team in the office-- which I am thrilled about, because my entire life I’ve been separated from my friends when it came to work environments. Now, Josh and I will have the opportunity to show others how well we work together in professional settings, despite being romantically involved-- and we won’t have to hide our romantic involvement, either. I foresee a very nice future in front of us .

The end of the tunnel is looking mighty bright after all.

Weird Trivia About Me: I have been more or less of a recluse since at least 2012.



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Tags: My Life, The Valentine, Personal Development